The suck continues

Well, I wish I could post something more uplifting at the moment, but life is what it is. Pardon me, I just need to whine and do a "poor me" for a moment.

On my own health front things might actually be looking up. My hemoglobin levels are at 90 (Canadian units, not sure how they compare to American, I just know they're different) when an adult female should be at 120-140, and so far they can't find a cause. They've decided since my cycle isn't "light" and I have a thick uterine lining (they did a biopsy, that hurts) to try stopping it all together and see if that helps, so I got a depo provera shot. Seriously crossing fingers that it will help. I'm taking 2 yoga classes per week now and a mental health assertiveness class, though I've felt too fatigued to write or draw in the last week or so.

On the same day I got the shot (Weds), my husband found out that his stool sample had blood in it, which triggers it being sent to the cancer center and a colonoscopy. I got one of those last year to look for a bleed so I can walk him through that. He also found out that his shoulder pain isn't just bursitis and arthritis, an ultrasound showed that he has 2 badly torn tendons in his shoulder, so he might be getting surgery. Except I might not be able to be here for it.

I got a message from my mom today that they're to the point with my dad (who has end stage liver cancer) that there's no more tests or dr appointments. It's now going to be all hospice, and he might have a few months left.

So basically I'm at the Scotty, beam me up stage ... my practical side has already told the hubby that his mother might need to come out if I can't be here for his surgery, has noted that the yoga class I'm starting Sunday and REALLY wanted to take ends the day before my brother says he'll be going down to stay with my mom so I can finish that before (selfish me), and that I can take the assertiveness class again if I miss a bunch of it. It's part of the mental health program here.

So maybe don't expect much fiction for a while. Unless I start writing in an attempt not to think. Hopefully more drawing, though. Trying to get myself back to that. Meanwhile ... Scotty, I'm waiting.

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I'm grateful they found the torn tendons. If both tore completely, the hubby would lose use of his arm. :/

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So sorry, Chris. Do take care of yourself. It's hard to do, I know, when everything is falling apart. And remember, you have friends here and we love you.

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Feel free to rant away Chris, we're always here to listen.

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So sorry to here that CW. I hope they can get a handle on your anemia issues and your husbands shoulder fixed.

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Chris,

So sorry to hear about everything. I'm here if you need me... *hugs*

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Yeah, I was having the same thought, Becky, that we're all around the same age and all in that fun zone where the body becomes a pain and the parents are older than we want to believe.

I think that procedure hasn't come up for me because they're not 100% sure that my cycle is part of the issue. The depo provera is an experiment to see if it is. If it really, really helps then that might be on the table!

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