I hope this didnt cost you too much money??

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Though I am no Condor, my Skylines rusty enough."

Hey, SJ, so glad we could help! We're here for you anytime you need us!

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Hinotori
Eagle in Charge

What happened SJ...we all have our moments of regret...like Doh! why did I dooooo that...aaaggghhh

It sounds like one of those...

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Ahhh ... Thanks, guys.

Yeah it was something really, really stupid ... and I can't believe that I did it.

I was told, pressured, forced to share a piece of writing I did years ago with someone. I was told that if I didn't do it, this individual would do it herself...

So I set out on a covert mission to pretend I sent it, to get her off my shoulder ...

So ... I did a faux email... With a big note saying "god please don't take this the wrong way - you won't understand it because I really don't & please don't think I am a deranged fucktard"

Something like that.

Well. So okay. Great plan...

but ....

STUPID STUPID STUPID ME HIT SEND

I actually didn't intend to send. I was just going to save it to drafts and show a copy to the woman in question, kind of like - yeah, see ... leave it.

So, stupid fucktard me hit SEND

I HIT FUCKING SEND!

Hotmail doesn't let you RECALL messages like Outlook does .... Oh no... And fuck, I would have had plenty of time to recall cause it was sent to Australia - time difference and all that...

So now this person, whom I owe fucking everything I am to, will now read this fucked up piece of shit and think I am a deranged fuckwit...

:breathe breathe:

So there's the story.

That is my asshole of a day .... sighhhhhhh

Thanks for the ear, kiddies ... I am now going to go have a beer, have a shower, and then write something really angsty birdie to get my frustration out - something about a deranged Condor beating the chit out of a meddling woman ....

:smile:

Thanks.

I actually feel better now....

SJ

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Sighhh

Why do men snore when lying on their backs?
Because their balls fall over their butt holes and they vapour lock.

Could you send an explanatory email, apologizing?

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Swan jun...it sounds like a dilemma you're in. I hope you find a solution soon.

If not.. as fast as you can to the nearest watering hole.

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Oh guys, I wish an explanatory email would do the trick, but I honestly think the damage is done ...

Rubs hand tiredly down face

The problem is:

He is an ex-teacher of mine

He stopped me from doing something really stupid and told me how to work my way through my teenage problems (granted he never knew the full-extent of such problems)

I followed his advice and by doing so eventually completely reassessed my situation and ... uh ... put down the weapon - so to speak

I stupidly kept the piece I wrote, and it ended up in the hands of this women ... (I posted it at da house for a whole day before deciding to remove the offensive material) ...

She insisted that he had to read it to understand what he did for me. (bear in mind this woman is a kind-of employer for me and is someone who not only was originally of that profession, but is someone who I feel I can grow with - from a purely writing stand-point) ...

I tried to be false in my sending of an email, because my internal conflict is that he never, ever, ever, needs to know how desperately screwed up I was, and why I felt I couldn't actually approach he or anyone at school over it ... It's actually quite insulting for him (depending on how you read it of course. To me it is complimentary, to anyone else it could be insulting)

I like the piece only to show myself how I grew, how I conquered, and how it is possible to pull through hell and find happiness and contentment. That is the only reason I kept it.

I just got click happy on a god damn email I sent to her with a few other pieces she wanted to review.

Damage control? I honestly don't think there is any ...

I'll ponder it, though ... I'm sure I can think of something.

Or do I just leave it?

I don't know.

But, guys, thanks for the ear.

SJ

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Sighhh

Why do men snore when lying on their backs?
Because their balls fall over their butt holes and they vapour lock.

Fugly and fucktard. Man, those are two damm good words. I hope you and your hubbie, don't mind if I use on occasional?

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Tempory Frisker

Sj now you have vented drink then sleep on it before deciding what you do next.

As Tj said you can then said an email explaining/apologising or it could be this person will realise you have grown since then and what you wrote then is not who you are now?

We all go through bad times, have times when we feel really low and if writing down helped you recover from that it is a positive thing.

either way take care and remember we are here

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Are you sure you aren't Australian, Kimi??

I swear life a wharfie ... I've tried replacing words with something less ... but it just doesn't sound right.

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Sighhh

Why do men snore when lying on their backs?
Because their balls fall over their butt holes and they vapour lock.